no no no
the crying. it's started again.
not quite that bad, but oh tonight's been rough. i only got a few hours of sleep last night and now i can't sleep at all. i went to bruno's to pick up some essentials (seriously... like, a toothbrush) and i didn't have $18 on my debit card. this is very bad. kelsey's birthday is coming up. what am i going to do? i hate all these may birthdays, it's killing me. and i'm only going to be here for three weeks, so it's not enough time to get a job or anything here... i'll have to do something there though. besides, it'll increase my exposure to people. i guess. i don't know. i'm just so frustrated. i'm at home and it's weird and i just don't know what's going on at all here. i just kept walking around the store because i couldn't figure out what was going on at all. it was insane.
hey ok, here's good news.
i finally got online banking set up and i was able to transfer some money just now out of savings to hold me over. not the best solution, but it'll do.
i feel sick. it's that stomach sick where you don't know if you're hungry or upset or about to throw up. i hate that feeling. i had it once and thought i was hungry and i ate saltines and sprite and i threw up. so not fair.
ok, so things are better now. i'm such a fickle and irrational and emotional person. the littlest things just KILL me. my magnet that says "good clothes open all doors" got ruined today. i have one of those wall plugin scented things (sweet pea, bath and body works) and i unplugged it to pack it up and put it in a tupperware thingie with some magnets and odds and ends while packing to today. well, it was still warm and melted the magnet, and then it leaked EVERYWHERE in the container. so now everything in my room smells very strongly of sweet pea. and my car too. and that's not cool. maybe that's why i feel sick. it's too strong. ugh.
i got a parking ticket, finally. out of all the days when i let my meter expire or just couldn't find a dime or nickle, my last day in athens (well, i got the ticket my second to last day) i get the $5 ticket. parking beyond time allowed. it was a one hour spot. i was there for... 3 hours? i don't know. so i had to pay that too. that was fun.
i sort of wish i could just skip these three weeks and get started in tennessee. i'm anxious and ready and raring to go. and i want to start working and studying and being sciencey again. liberal arts can only take you so far.
my head hurts and i'm tired. why can't i sleep? oh, that's right, because everything smells like freaking sweet pea. sucky. i'm in a foul mood. i think i need some victoria holt to calm me down or something. maybe just green tea. who knows. ugh. i wish i wasn't so frustrated and hateful. i want to knock hats off.
maybe mom has some closets that need to be organized. she pays us to do that from time to time. can't i just leave already? gosh.
the only cure for this is a good bout at the gym. but i can't do that for a few more hours, so i guess i'll just sleep?
ok, it's only may 11th technically, but it counts, right? 18 minutes? makes the time seem that much shorter. i wish anna wasn't at the beach. i'd like to be in her company right now.
love
lindsey
not quite that bad, but oh tonight's been rough. i only got a few hours of sleep last night and now i can't sleep at all. i went to bruno's to pick up some essentials (seriously... like, a toothbrush) and i didn't have $18 on my debit card. this is very bad. kelsey's birthday is coming up. what am i going to do? i hate all these may birthdays, it's killing me. and i'm only going to be here for three weeks, so it's not enough time to get a job or anything here... i'll have to do something there though. besides, it'll increase my exposure to people. i guess. i don't know. i'm just so frustrated. i'm at home and it's weird and i just don't know what's going on at all here. i just kept walking around the store because i couldn't figure out what was going on at all. it was insane.
hey ok, here's good news.
i finally got online banking set up and i was able to transfer some money just now out of savings to hold me over. not the best solution, but it'll do.
i feel sick. it's that stomach sick where you don't know if you're hungry or upset or about to throw up. i hate that feeling. i had it once and thought i was hungry and i ate saltines and sprite and i threw up. so not fair.
ok, so things are better now. i'm such a fickle and irrational and emotional person. the littlest things just KILL me. my magnet that says "good clothes open all doors" got ruined today. i have one of those wall plugin scented things (sweet pea, bath and body works) and i unplugged it to pack it up and put it in a tupperware thingie with some magnets and odds and ends while packing to today. well, it was still warm and melted the magnet, and then it leaked EVERYWHERE in the container. so now everything in my room smells very strongly of sweet pea. and my car too. and that's not cool. maybe that's why i feel sick. it's too strong. ugh.
i got a parking ticket, finally. out of all the days when i let my meter expire or just couldn't find a dime or nickle, my last day in athens (well, i got the ticket my second to last day) i get the $5 ticket. parking beyond time allowed. it was a one hour spot. i was there for... 3 hours? i don't know. so i had to pay that too. that was fun.
i sort of wish i could just skip these three weeks and get started in tennessee. i'm anxious and ready and raring to go. and i want to start working and studying and being sciencey again. liberal arts can only take you so far.
my head hurts and i'm tired. why can't i sleep? oh, that's right, because everything smells like freaking sweet pea. sucky. i'm in a foul mood. i think i need some victoria holt to calm me down or something. maybe just green tea. who knows. ugh. i wish i wasn't so frustrated and hateful. i want to knock hats off.
maybe mom has some closets that need to be organized. she pays us to do that from time to time. can't i just leave already? gosh.
the only cure for this is a good bout at the gym. but i can't do that for a few more hours, so i guess i'll just sleep?
ok, it's only may 11th technically, but it counts, right? 18 minutes? makes the time seem that much shorter. i wish anna wasn't at the beach. i'd like to be in her company right now.
love
lindsey
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